It’s finally over!

Yep its over. My fall semester is finally over. I’ll be heading back to Jakarta on Thursday night. Just now, I had just finished my last final exam of Discrete Structures with Computer Science Applications II bla bla bla. The test was hard, but I think I’ve tried my best already, so I wont leave any regret.

Yesterday, I had a study group with a friend of mine till 12 midnight, then woke up again this morning at 6.15am and arrived at school around 7.20am and began to study again until 7.15pm. wow? 12 straight hours of studying? I went trance and transmitted all my aura to my brain. With all that power on my brain, I was able to put extra focus on my studies. Unluckily, the power started to vanish to the air when the exam is about the start. My brain went numb and my stomach was crying for food.

I’ve been too focus on my studying these past couple of weeks that make me not realize the holiday season around me. Lots of house in my neighborhood are decorated with Christmas Lights already, and the weather is freakin cold. I cant even stay outside for more than 5 minutes without my jacket.

*yawn* SO SLEEPY!!! SO TIRED!!! I better go to sleep.

Happy Holiday to you all

I’m Bored ~
Wiermansa

This Will be My Prayer Tonight

I did close my eyes
But when i woke up
its too painfull to know
it aint a dream

I’m lonely
Alone in my bedroom
I’ve got anything that i thought i need
but yes i felt so bored

its deeper and darker than bored
i couldnt explain
but i couldnt see a reason
to smile for today

i just wanna reach the sky
where i can rest my head
and feel save
feel the happiness i used to feel

in the darkest hour
i’d like to spell this simple prayer of mine
cause id know nothing else to do
but to come to Your presence

Dear Mighty Lord in Heaven,
i’m as deep and dark as anything i know before,
please lend me Your light
I’m as confuse as i have never felt,
please show Your way
I’m as lonely as i never wanna be
please let me feel Your presence
and when i couldn’t find a reason to smile today,
remind me of the beautifull sunrise that you rise for me, the blue sky that you paint for me, the air that you create for me, the home that you let awaits for me and most of all about the magnificent plant that you prepare for me.

Please let me understand
make me realize of Your company
Take me to the faith
Where I can find every reason in this world to feel fulfilled. Amen

I’m Bored~
Wiermansa

Virtual Friends

I was browsing through my msn messenger a while ago, but I just realized that I have made alot of friends through the internet. These people are my friends whom I have never (not even once) met them in real life, yet I could chat with them like they are my own best friends. I knew some of their faces because they gave me their email to their friendsters account, but some kept a secret of their true identity, but who cares about that. When I really need them, they are always there to support me.

Here are the list of my online friends: (I’m sorry if I miss some of you) just give me a message =D

1. Chui - I called her Chui or Kyleen. I met her in this online game called Gunbound. Shes really good with boomer back then.
2. Saint James – oh Ive met this guy like 3 years ago. Same like Chui, I played Gunbound with him
3. Richard aka. nobodyperfect – I recently met this guy in Dota at lordaeron. He’s just 14 years old and he keeps talking shit.
4. Wujia – If Im not mistaken, he was my guildmate in FEEL in gunbound
5. Anderson aka. vvind – oh man, he was the one who taught me how to play gunbound, my teacher, and then we play maplestory together for a while.
6. Nenmacil - I met this guy in Dota and hes pretty good with most of the heroes. I first called this guy NENEN.
7. Tikus - He’s a game freak. He plays almost every game and gets really good at it. I dissapear a long time ago.
8. Noel - my best gunbound buddy. He keeps telling me that I’m noob, but I pwned him badly.
9. Nick - I met him in gunbound, introduced by dino.
10. Retardo - my FEEL guildmate and hes Indonesian.
11. phantomd - FEEL’s professor. His accuracy is beyond godlike but it took 15 seconds for him to shoot lol.
12. reverbs - I met this guy in gunbound like 4 years ago. Never really keep contact with him.
13. anta - I actually met this guy in person once like a year ago. He is surprisingly shy. haha
14. benz - I met this guy in maplestory and help me alot with my character.
15. Halim - This guy is anta’s buddy. His boomer skill was unpredictable. He’s a boomer legend.
16. Sky - He is my gunbound buddy and he never show himself since 3 years ago
17. akusalah - the best gunbounder I have ever known and hes Indonesian. Never meet him in person though. Hes a funny guy. trash talking ftw.
18. Sally - I’ve played lots of online games with her, but she never tell her true identity. I think shes a guy lol.
19. Uwil - met him like only 2 months in dota then quit.
20. ciek - meet him like 3 years ago and still play gunbound together with this guy
21. jeff - young dude who likes to play as cleric in maplestory. hes a nice guy
22. dino - One of my best virtual friends. He is someone who I can talk my problems to.
23. Monica - i met her in gunbound, and when I was walking at the mall, she recognized me and we introduced each other. I talked to her through phone several times.
24. Snowagers - this girl is gunbound freak. The only games she play is gunbound. Winnie, where are you now? I miss ya =D
25. Babi - This girl is taiwanese. We talk about alot of things. I like her so much and shes funny too.
26. Stib - Meet him long time ago in gunbound and still play with him. Hes my guildmate in Chrush
27. Herwin - wow this guy is like the first friend I had in gunbound. He dissapeared to the mist.
28. Cookies aka. Daniel – Hes jewish and he plays gunbound. Hes a pro.
29. Gembel elite – Meet him in Dota but dissapear.
30. Hery - just meet him in Dota. I dont really know him.
31. Jimmy - a close friend of dino and we lives in the same city, but we never really meet each other.
32. Burnoutz - my gunbound buddy who apply to FEEL at the same time. I got accepted first =p. lets play again sometimes man.
33. Kim - I miss you girl. Where have you been?
34. Kusnadi - my old gunbound buddy
35. alex - meet him in maplestory and he gave me his msn address. I never talk to him again after that.
36. maxiwill - hes my counterstrike buddy but he dissapear.
37. Widjadjaman - hes the guy who taught me how to play dota
38. Cilpie - Shes my best gunbound friend. We still play together up until this time.
39. Chyre - a decent guy who lives in hawaii. I can tell that hes a really nice guy. I met him in gunbound.
40. Vexez - this guy is my guildmaster when I was in FEEL. He quit gunbound and gave it to nemo.
41. sapi - this guy talk shit on me when we first met. I remember that time I was using 2nd account. F*** you sapi. haha
42. ArmorJoseph - nice guy. He lives in southern america. We actually trash talked each other when we first met.
43. Susan - I dont really know her but shes really good in gunbound.
44. Orangemood - Nice guy who has Indodota.com. I never really talk to him.
45. VPD - just know him recently from indodota. He seems like a nice guy.
46. Zhanzhen - this guy is smart and sharp. He never show his true identity.
47. Piko - I met him in mangafever.net. He’s a nice guy with alot of anime knowledge.
48. Daniel - Met him in indodota.com, and hes the “whisper” minister
49. Legion - He always msged me late at night lol.
50. sayurann - Knew him from INdodota too.. he seems to be a funny guy.. ^^

ahhhhhhhhhh so tired listing them all..

I’m bored~
Wiermansa

Boredom! Leave me alone~

I almost can’t stand this anymore. I’m at home, alone, again. Exam is near, yea, but I dont have the motivation to study at all. Why is this happening to me? I feel empty inside. Every single day, I wake up in the morning asking myself what am I going to do today? will I be alone again today? It’s not that I dont have friends, infact, I have plenty of friends. My life is so dull and colorless. I keep saying to myself, “you just miss your family”. Yes it’s true that I miss them every minute of my life, but I need something. I dont know what that is, but I truly need something to spice up my life.

When I look at myself, I should be happy. I believe many people would envy me if they only see me from the outside. I’m not being arrogant or anything, I just feel that my life should be fun and I should be happy all the time with all the thing I have and what I’m able to do. Why I feel so sad and so empty inside? I dont know what to do now. Maybe, I should just ignore my feelings and start doing what I’m supposed to do. Finals are near anyway.

argh, I should just go sleep and wake up early tomorrow. I’m scared of tomorrow.

I’m bored ~
Wiermansa

Fate Stay Night

This anime just rocks!!!! Anime Lovers out there better watch this episodes.

Fate Stay Night

Description: From AnimeNfo.com

Shirou Emiya lost his parents in a fire when he was young and was later adopted by a sorceror by the name of Kiritsugu Emiya. Although he was full of admiration for his adopted father and yearns to become an ally of justice, Shirou has limited powers and was unable to become a strong sorceror like his father. That is until one fateful day, he was drawn into the Holy Grail War and had to summon a female “Servant” known as Saber in order to protect himself. It turns out that the Holy Grail War involves a series of battles among powerful sorcerors to fight for the possession of a relic that will grant one’s wishes, the Holy Grail.

There are altogether seven “Masters” who can summon their respective “Servants” from different classes known as Saber, Archer, Rider, Berserker, Lancer, Caster and Assasin. These “Servants” have to hide their names in order not to reveal their weaknesses to the enemies. The story revolves around Shirou and his entanglement in the Holy Grail War

“Dude, where can I download this anime? MuffinDomain

and also, I have collected several pictures and wallpapers of Fate Stay Night, and if you want it, download it HERE

I’m Bored ~
Wiermansa

Ai Yori Aoshi

I just finished watching this anime series last night, and I feel amazed and disappointed at the same time. Im disappointed because the serie is not yet finished. Gosh, Aoi-chan with her short blue hair smiling like an angle. She is so cute. I might get one of her small figures later. I’m amazed how the author was able to put the warmness in the anime. Their love to each other that bond so strongly and even watching it could melt my heart. *sensitive mode on*

Ai Yori Aoshi has two series, “Ai Yori Aoshi” with 24 episodes and “Ai Yori Aoshi: enishi” with 12 episodes. I think there is going to be another serie of this anime since the end of Ai Yori Aoshi: enishi is not an ending after all.

I’m too lazy to write a report on this anime so I just take it from AnimeNfo.

The description:

One day, Hanabishi Kaoru, second year university student, came across a young woman in a kimono who seemed distressed. She was searching for a certain person whom she had not met in years. While she had an address, this was only her first time in the city. Kaoru decided to offer his assistance. However, the address she had led them to an empty plot of land.

Kaoru brought the distraught woman to his home where she presented him with a childhood photograph of herself and the person whom she was searching for, the only remaining clue she possessed. Remarkably enough, he recognised himself in the photograph. It turns out that she was Sakuraba Aoi, sole heir to the wealthy Sakuraba family. She had been matchmade with Kaoru and had spent 18 years preparing for this. However, when Kaoru left the Hanabishi, he was disowned by the family and the engagement annulled. She came to entreat him to return to the Hanabishi. How will Kaoru reconcile his feelings for Aoi with the reasons that drove him away from the Hanabishi?

so, overall, this is an interesting anime and really worth to watch.

I’m Bored ~
Wiermansa

Big win!

For all of you dota fans out there, I would like to share to you guys one of my best Dota match. It was an all random easy mode game and I luckily got my favorite hero, Phantom Lancer. Here are the statistics:

Sentinel:
1. Phantom Lancer (me)
2. Visage
3. Terrorblade
4. Luna
5. Abaddon

Scourge:
1. Lich
2. Night Stalker
3. Spirit Breaker
4. Morphling
5. Priestess of the Moon

At early game, Luna and abaddon died because they got ganked and left. I was so pissed and thought that this would end. I mean 3 against 5 is a useless time-wasting match anyway. However, this guy controlling visage said that we could still win the game if we play well. I was saying to myself, “aww, cmon look at scourge. All their heros are hero killers.” Well, he was confident enough that we could win, so I gave it a try. We got pushed pretty badly from the middle and the top. Our towers and raxs are down. We fought really well on defending our territory and they were having a hard time pushing through. My two friends are freaking pros. They played their heros really well. We didnt play by ourselves, we played as a team. Lich could do much since I chose to kill lich first as the opening of the big battle. Nightstalker giving us a hard time by pushing on all three lanes by himself and also with the help of spiritbreaker.

Here is the replay to download

Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do.

I’m Bored ~
Wiermansa

wiermansa launched!

lol its launched! a weird way of saying it but what the heck.

I was browsing through my favorite forum just a few minutes ago, and looked at one of the moderator friend’s profile. I saw his signature with the link to his blog and so I opened it and read through his posts. “humm, pretty nice blog”. Oh hey, may be blogging would help me cure the lonelyness that is killing me right now. Well, I’m not sure if I’m a person who can take the commitment to write a blog at least once every three days, but i guess its worth a try. “Dude, you are so f***ing late to blog”. I know I am. I cant even count how many times I have been told by my friends to blog. I dont even bother registering. The friend I was talking about, his nickname is helper at the forum that I usually hang out, www.indodota.com.

Fall semester almost ends and Christmas is near. I cant wait to see mom, dad, sis, bro. Gosh, I miss you all so much.

I’m bored ~
Wiermansa