I almost can’t stand this anymore. I’m at home, alone, again. Exam is near, yea, but I dont have the motivation to study at all. Why is this happening to me? I feel empty inside. Every single day, I wake up in the morning asking myself what am I going to do today? will I be alone again today? It’s not that I dont have friends, infact, I have plenty of friends. My life is so dull and colorless. I keep saying to myself, “you just miss your family”. Yes it’s true that I miss them every minute of my life, but I need something. I dont know what that is, but I truly need something to spice up my life.
When I look at myself, I should be happy. I believe many people would envy me if they only see me from the outside. I’m not being arrogant or anything, I just feel that my life should be fun and I should be happy all the time with all the thing I have and what I’m able to do. Why I feel so sad and so empty inside? I dont know what to do now. Maybe, I should just ignore my feelings and start doing what I’m supposed to do. Finals are near anyway.
argh, I should just go sleep and wake up early tomorrow. I’m scared of tomorrow.
I’m bored ~